Im done
2 weeks ago // 0 notes
John Wayne Gacy and Stephen King have both done irreparable damage to the clown industry.
3 weeks ago // 1,222 notes
Does it ever happen to anyone else that you start thinking about things you realize you deep down painfully longed to hear during your adolescence… And start crying because of how extremely basic and trivial they actually are? And how everyone seems to hear or be shown them so often it’s routine, no big deal, barely noticeable due to how ingrained and automatic they were? As if it’s like just another meal or night of sleep? Like there’s barely any second thought at all to them because their absence is as unimaginable as a maroon sky, or a mustard-colored ocean? Because the idea of their absence is as absurd as the idea of a bacteria with a developed multi-cellular nervous system or a backwards gravity?
Because, like. The things I wished to hear when I was younger, and that maybe could’ve protected me from a spiralling down mental hell, are actually so fucking basic. Like:
“You’re deeply upset and I see and understand it. You have reason to be upset”
“It’s not your fault. The hell everyone’s putting you through isn’t your fault”
“There’s nothing wrong with you that makes everyone hate and bully you. You never deserved any of that. They’re bullies. You could act the extreme opposite way you do & they’d still be bullies. The wrong is in them”
“You’re not throwing a tantrum. You’re sad and expressing it and it’s ok”
“I didn’t know what I said/did hurt you. I regret it and want to apologize”
“I did aim to hurt you that time, but nowadays I see I was wrong, regret it and want to apologize”
“People should care about your feelings. If they don’t, they’re in the wrong, not you for feeling & expressing your feelings”
“You aren’t stupid and r*tarded for not knowing or understanding everything beforehand or as it happens. It’s ok not to know everything”
“Your feelings are important. What you think and want is important”
“I’m willing to change if how I act is hurting you”
“You have the right to feel what you feel”
“What’s wrong? Did anything happen?”
“I care about what you feel”
“Hey, come here. Let me hug you as you cry”
“You don’t have to be alone”
“You’re allowed to be angry”
“You can cry”
“You are enough”
“You are worthy”
“It’s not your fault”
Just
These, and so many other such basic things I can’t continue to write because the more I do the more I cry. It wasn’t so much to ask for. But even nowadays I get a “you can ask but people won’t give a shit”
Why can’t people just… care about my feelings? Think and say they matter and are important? Why couldn’t I have that during my horrible hellish teenage years? Why can’t I have that at least nowadays?
3 weeks ago // 41 notes
